Over-coming fears…

The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.”  Eleanor Roosevelt

I saw this quote tonite on another person’s blog, (lesleycarter.wordpress.com) and it really resonated with me.  You see, I wrote a Bucket list, several years ago and I put things on it I thought I would never accomplish, but that I really wanted to try.

The past couple of weeks, I have accomplished and marked some things off that Bucket list.  The most favorite at this time would have to be Ziplining in Jamaica.  You see for me, 1. I am afraid of heights.  2.I’m REALLY afraid of heights.

I’ve been to 3 different countries that I had never been to.  Now as a kid, Europe was my playground, and I visited alot of different countries and a lot of different cultures. 

As I’ve grown older I’ve learned that I had a “special” up bringing.  I saw alot of things other kids never knew at that age.  It formed me into an adult who was ok with different  cultures, different people and not judging anything or anyone.

I think one of things I want to do next would be para-sailing, that looks like fun, and although I have had the opportunity in the past few years, I’ve chickend out at the last moment.  I’m not sure why, but I think with the Ziplining, I’ve found a “new” courage. 

It really is neat to do something that gives you pleasure and to feel like you’ve “overcome” a certain fear.  Life is to short and so am I, that’s been my motto most of my life, simply for the fact while everyone else grew, my happy butt stayed at 4″11″, nope, I never met 5 feet. 

 I’ve also learned to kill spiders, (I really was afraid of them), but I still can’t over come my fear of snakes.  The just make me RUN and hide in a safe place.  The Electrician will tell you also, that I am DEATHLY afraid of Dentist’s…not really sure why, but I can’t make myself go to one.  I brush my teeth, and they are still attached so, forget about it.  I went to the Dentist’s office with the Electrician recently and WHOA…psst, I broke into a cold sweat at the sound of the drill and had to leave the office to go outside for fresh air.

I’m not sure why I have fears about certain things, but to me they are real.  I can’t control how my body responds to some things.  I am slowly trying to conquer fears as I get older, but somethings will never change.

I was proud of the fact that I rode the elevator while we were on the cruise ship because normally, I will take the stairs before getting on an elevator, it has something to do with being claustrophobic.   I don’t like being closed off from everything.  I’m getting better at it, and can breathe normally and not go straight up balistic.  I think this fear stems from the fact that when the Farmer and I lived in England and we had a flat (apartment) on the (technically 4th floor but was called the 3rd floor), I got stuck in the old elevator for about 2 hours scared to death.  After that experience I took the stairs EVERYWHERE.

Have you ever noticed that when you get older, you see things differently?  What scared me as a child, no longer scares me.  Okay, maybe somethings still do, But I am slowly reversing the effect.

Getting older really isn’t that bad.  I’m not sure why I was so scared of my past birthday, I’m 50 and PROUD of it…..I’m one of the last few Baby boomers, and it really isn’t so bad.  p.s.  I get discounts at Denny’s AND BOOMTOWN Casino….hehehe


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