This one is off the cuff, and I promise not to delete it in the morning. I’ve done that a bunch lately. I have made a post and then wiped it off the face of the earth, because it left me feeling vulnerable..
Before I get into what I really want to say, I just have to mention, I truly had have a wonderful day. Today was Cam-Man’s 3rd Birthday, and the Electrician and I decided we are not moving anytime soon. It’s ok, because I truly need to be here for other reasons. Besides, that Cam-Man dude has wormed his way into his Papa and my hearts.
A friend, or shall I say Brother, has had a hard time lately. His Momma was affected with something kind of like my Momma is. Her time was up, and she was surrounded by her family, and she crossed over. So to speak. His pain is great, and I feel it, because at the same token, I am dealing with some of what he did.
I look at death with a different eye these days. It should not be a means for “selfishness”. Because we are truly selfish for our reason’s for keeping someone who has suffered enough to be here, simply because it will crush us, to have them go away.
It has taken me some time to get to this point. Why do we want our loved one’s to suffer, because we cannot let them go? At the point I am at, let them go. Let there be no more pain, let there be no more, what if’s. If they are suffering and have no quality of life, Let them go.
I truly believe there is a ‘Rainbow Bridge” for animals, and I believe there is a Rainbow bridge for humans.
I truly haste the suffering, and I hate the disease’s. Any of them, be it Cancer, be it Alzheimer’s, be it Parkinson’s. Any of them. I don’t like what they do to a person, nor do I like what we, as family members have to deal with. It ain’t pretty by any means, way, shape or form. Sometimes the pain for the person suffering through “whatever” they have just hits us smack in the face, and Man does it hurt.
I know what is expected from me, I deal with what I can, but sometimes, on this road, I stumble and fall, but I get right back up and go with it. That’s all I can do.
So, while y’all are out there dealing with whatever you deal with, just stop and think for a moment. Do I really have it that bad? Because 9 times out of ten you don’t.
It’s taken me a LONG time to realize all of this. I have a roof over my head, I have food to feed my belly, I am in control of all my body parts, (so far), Before I even begin to think I have it rough, I sit back and look at others. I’m not judging, I’m simply saying….Momma is still alive, and doing good. I have my health, I have peeps I love beyond all recognition, and God is smiling on me.
If nothing else, hug your kids and give them extra kisses, if your Mom and Dad are still alive, LET them KNOW how much they mean to you. Don’t ever look back and say “I wish I had…” Do it now,.