When I saw this in my e-mail this morning, before I got up to do what I normally do on a Sunday, I kind of giggled to myself.
I guess I don’t see it in the context it is said. Let me break it down for you. First of all, I am lucky to have a glass to put anything in, because there are plenty of people out there that do not even own a glass.
If the glass is half empty, then I have a bunch more to cherish and enjoy. If the glass is half full, then I am doing pretty good, and still have a bunch more to cherish and enjoy. So either way you look at it, I am Blessed for having the glass and it being either “half empty” or “half full”.
It’s all in how you look at it…..
Didja ever just wish your bones did not creak as much as they do?
Didja ever wonder how, when you were a kid, time took so long to go through, and then when you got older, wonder, where did the time go?
Didja ever wonder why a wild turkey makes the sound it makes?
Didja ever wonder where that last roll of toilet paper went, that you thought you had?
Didja ever wonder what a cat really thinks when they look at you and the food bowl is full, but they want a minute of your day?
Didja ever wonder why that lightning bolt hit just in the middle of your yard, to scare the crappola out of you?
Didja ever wonder, why with so much beauty in the world, there is so much ugliness?
Didja ever wonder why, you cannot get the last spoonful of peanut butter OUT of the jar?
Didja ever wonder why sometimes you cannot sleep, when you are so tired, but sleep will not come?
Didja ever wonder at a rainbow?
Didja ever wonder at the smells, flowers give? Or fresh-cut grass?
Didja ever wonder how someone can be mean to another person?
Didja ever wonder, what it would be like if you could not be yourself anymore?
Didja ever wonder if you were being selfish?
Didja ever wonder if maybe, just maybe, there were other people who had some of the silly questions you did?
Didja ever wonder if maybe, your purpose was to bring joy to another person?
Didja ever stop to think, you could be helping someone?
Didja ever wish, that things could be normal?
Didja ever question what normal was?
Didja just wish for better all around?
My mind tonite is filled with so many questions, and so many feelings, that I feel. I don’t quite know how to express them, and someone told me, “You are a writer, what the heck?”
Guess what, there are some emotions that go through us, we do not know how to describe, we just feel them, whether they give us pain or joy, we FEEL them. Sometimes there are no words.
I’ve been on a rocky path lately and I know it. It’s ok, I’m dealin….Call me the Queen of hearts, because seriously, I feel it all. From my family to my friends, I have seen it, shared it, (with some), and tried to be “graceful” while doing it. Although to be honest, I am a bit clutzy. (I know anyone who KNOWS me is yelling, NOT you!)
I’ve been humbled in this past week, I’ve been terrified, and I’ve also had some serious giggle moments. I’m walking this path,ok, I’ll admit it, I am crawling this path I’m on. But I’m on it. But ya know what I’ve FINALLY figured out? I’m not on it on my own.
This is from my heart, I’ve been on this journey for a while, but I have a good support system, and it just got bigger, ya wanna know why? Because simply, I’m not in it alone. I have all of my readers, and I have all of my family, friends and everyone else, but ya know what? I’ve truly got God on my side, there is a lesson in this for me, and I’m searching for it, and I WILL find it.
Broken into a bunch of shards…
glass will cut you…
You will feel the pain..
blood will fall into drips
on the floor…
You will do your best…
to clean up the mess…
your life as you know it…
It isn’t the same…
things are different….
The way you look at things…
the things you say to others…
the way you feel about things…
You no longer take for granted…
the things you cherish…
the things you love…
You wish for more time…
Your wish is granted…
You live it to the fullest…
there are shards of glass everywhere…
waiting to break you into a million pieces…
But you are stronger than the glass…
And you survive….
And pick up the pieces….
Well, after spending yesterday, totally down and out, sleeping a bunch, sweating a bunch, coughing a bunch, and a few other things a bunch. I feel a tad bit better today.
I am going to stay drugged until the last possible moment, carry my box of kleenex with me, and put makeup all over my “Rudolph” nose.
Wish me luck!!
This is short, because I am multi-tasking at a snail’s pace, and we’ve gotta get moving. Plus, I’ve had some e-mails asking me where I was.
I’m still alive, just not moving at that “fart in a whrill wind speed“, like normal…..
Ok, so far this morning,
I have managed to trip on the stairs over the cat.
Spill coffee all over the wall in the above mentioned trip.
Cleaned up spilled coffee.
Tripped over the above mentioned cat, while refilling her water bowl.
Cleaned up the water, at the above mentioned trip.
Grabbed lotion instead of soap, while washing my face this morning.
And the topper……
How the heck do you get toothpaste in your eye?
With all of that being said, I am heading down the road to the Farmer’s with a very “fresh and minty” eye.
Maybe I should crawl back into bed, and start over?
I had an experience yesterday, that has kind of stuck with me. I’ve mulled it over in my mind for a bit, and I think I’m ready to let it out.
For those of you that follow my blog, y’all know I’m not allowed in a grocery store (problem of seriously over spending, I think I am food hoarder). But for the past couple of weeks, I’ve been doing the Grocery Shopping. Yesterday, I made a stop at the local Wal-Mart, and I was only there to buy lunchmeat for the Electrician’s lunches and a couple of other things, while I was walking around and looking at things (which I usually do, I have to look at EVERYTHING). I smiled at people, I was amazed by the amount of people who looked at me like I was crazy.
When I finally found my way to the deli area and was looking at what sandwich meat I wanted to purchase, there was a woman who was talking on her cell phone, the lady who was waiting on her, was getting a little stressed, because she saw she had a line forming. Everytime she would hand the cellphone lady an item, the woman would ask for something else, but when the deli lady asked her if the slice was ok, she would ignore her and keep talking on the cellphone. When the deli lady had handed her yet another bag of stuff, the cellphone lady kept talking. So, the deli lady went to wait on another person, when the cellphone lady told her she wanted one more thing. By now, there were about 6 people waiting at the deli, and this poor deli lady was by herself and very stressed out. The cellphone lady finished her conversation and ended her call and then looked around at all of us just standing there.
The deli lady went to wait on some other people and I was still standing there looking at the meat, but in my mind, I was seriously wondering when did it become ok to be rude, to other people, for the sake of a phone call.
When the deli lady came to wait on me she was breathless, and a little stressed, so I gave her a big smile, and looked at her and stated “Little busy huh?”. She stopped and looked at me and gave me a really big smile, as if to say thank you. I asked for the meat I wanted, and after she had given me my last order, I looked at her and smiled, and said “Thank you so much, you try to have a good day ok?”. She looked at me and said “Thank YOU, for your patience and understanding, and also for that smile, that made my day.”
So, I guess, my advice is to smile at a Stranger, you never know what they are dealing with, and it may just make someone else’s day.
Folks, I do have a post, but I thought I would share my blog with the Electrician. First, because I am very proud of what he is doing right now. Secondly, he has conquered his fear of heights, and claustrophobia at the same time. His post is in pictures and they tell what he does.
These are the new wind farms that are being place on 49 North, off of I-74.
The view looking up before entering the “tower”…enjoy the climb straight up!
This is the control panel, mainly the feed that controls and powers the turbine, come on in.
We are now on level three, looking down the hoist hole after climbing over two hundred and something feet, I never have counted the ladder steps…why?
This is the view and each deck is the same til you get up to the saddle and the cell. In side the box is the cable tray that we install, the white bags are the butt splices (lugs) we crimp to the cables. the room is about 10 feet in diameter.
This is the cable tray after being installed and the cables that need to be spliced together on each section of the tower. This is not a layed back take your time job, while putting this rack together, materials, crimpers, electrical cord for power are being lifted thru the hoist rope that has been dropped by workers above me. No not by the hoist. We all have to get on the rope and pull up all these “bags” by hand, we are not allowed to use the hoist.
These are the splices after being crimped, you have to be very careful that you crimp the lugs to the correct cables, screw it up and you then get the grinder, remove the lug and start again…haven’t done it yet and pray I don’t! You can see the heat shrink tubes below the lugs that we have to shrink over the splices, don’t forget to put these on either, I always double-check each cable…mistakes is more time inside this hot tower!
This is the finished product, after you heat shrink the insulation (2 of them, one small and a larger shrink tube) and then bundle and tie wrap them to the rack.
This is a look up to the fourth level and one of our crew workers moving 2 of the two ground cables over to make room for the nine cables that will be dropped down from the saddle to the first level. These cables are also being dropped while we are working on the cables as well, you have to feed these cables to the next level and be sure they do not wrap around any other cables, so you have to multitask as they tell us, so much going on at once. One of the larger cables I take on my level and do a figure “8” in about 8-10 layers. The weight of the cable is too heavy to drop down by itself, I then flip the figure “8” cable over, once they have feed my enough to then feed it down the rest of the way. This cable is not easy to flip over, they gave me help the first view days then told me i was on my own!
The rope and the power cord going up to the fourth level is where I have to go after finishing the 3rd level and start all over again…I am always ready to get down by this time, they never let me though…up we go again!
This is the finished product and a long day, all wired and ready for the propellers…only 125 left to go!
Over 300 Feet in the air looking at the next two we are working inside…next week.
The view of one of the three propellers extending out, these propellers are 150 feet long!
This is the FAA light that is on top of the cell, the cost of each light….$5000.00, you do not want to drop one! Oh and now times that times 134 turbines…$670,000.00!
You can see the roads they cut in the fields to get to each turbine.
A view across the Wind Farm, As far as the eye can see.
The feeds coming from the bottom of the tower to the top of the cell. The 3 sets of cables to the left are for the stators of the turbine and the next set is for the rotors. The two cables after that are ground cables, the last bundle of cables is low voltage cables for lights, receptacles and communication.
Suffering from some burns with the heat shrink , I’m getting better, but that stuff does get hot….
Enjoying the view from the top!
This my friends is the Electrician’s workday. Climbing up 300 feet and working with electrical. Me? I will keep my feet on the ground and be perfectly happy.
Apparently these “wind farms” are going up all over the United States and the company that the Electrician works for, has strict rules and timelines. The first couple of weeks, the Electrician was not happy. But it appears, that since he has conquered his fears (claustrophobia, and fear of heights), he is actually enjoying it. It’s tough work, and he works 10-12 hours a day, but he is really enjoying it, so I will keep making his lunches and worrying when he is up in the tower.
But I think it makes a difference him being happy, than him being unhappy. But ANY way you look at it, Camsgranny is proud of her Electrician.
Yup, I’m Queen of the backroads….if you have read my earlier posts then you will know, I HATE to drive through town.
So, Yesterday I had to go to the folks house and then go to the Kids house to watch Cam-theMan while his Daddy (the son-in-law) go for another test for his “new” job (which by the Grace of God he got).
So I fly over to the kid’s house and get to spend about an hour with Cam-the-man
While his Daddy AKA son-in-law AKA the fisher-dude…
took another test…this one was a semi-physical…he said he had to do lifts and stuff…but I digress AGAIN….
I was on my way back to the folks house and was driving down the road and I swear I thought I had lost my muffler. It was a VERY LOUD noise that had me turn onto W. Newell Road, (I know this because I ended up telling 3 different people about it) and pull over and get out and walk around my vehicle. YUP, I gotta flat tire…uhm.. ok…I’ve only had the Rav4 for a couple of months and I’ve never read the manual (I don’t even know where the jack for the car is ok?) But I do remember that I have Road side Assistance not only on my Insurance but ALSO through the Toyota dealership as well. I got this….I get on the cell phone and call the 1-800 # on my window (passenger side 2nd door) “Uhm..hello I have a flat and I don’t know where the jack is to change my tire…. uhm..ok I don’t even know where the crow bar (???) is to get my lug nuts off the tire is” “Ok..we will be there to help you and we will cover the first $100 to get you back on the road” Ok… that’s cool I’ll just sit here and wait for help.
Meanwhile I call the Electrician to tell him…Uhmm Honey I have no cash and I left the checkbook at home so if I have to pay something I’m gonna use the Credit Card. He says ok no problem. So here I am sitting in my car because EVERYBODY says sit in your car and wait for help. And ya know what….I sat there for about a half an hour and only 3 nice looking gentleman stopped to ask me if I needed help and I told them nah, but Thank you!
Meanwhile I get a call from the Farmer who tells me “Larry just called I wanna go harvest some beans…” “uhm ok…go ahead I’ll be there in a few minutes roadside just called me and they will be here in 10 minutes so go ahead and go and tell Mom I’ll be there in a few minutes…” Then the Electrician calls me and says “Are you in your car?” “Uhm yup why” “The police have helicopters and a swat team cuz somethings going on and it’s on the road your on” “Uhm… ok I can see for about 2 miles and there’s nothing but ok I will sit in my car and lock the doors”…
Then…I am looking up the hill and low and behold Carnaghi’s Towing pulls up next to my Rav4 and gets out and changes my tire, not needing a carjack or nothin’… He was a really nice guy that took care of my flat tire in no time at all (probably about 8 minutes top). Fixed my flat tire and told me to Have a nice day Ma’am….Now I know why I bought that extra service at the dealership…So I was on my way…got to the folks house and Mom was cleaning… okay…maybe flooding the kitchen but it’s ok….we all survived and no-one was hurt. Altho I spent the next hour re-cleaning her flood in the kitchen but ya know what it was ok…..
And by the way….I’ll still take the back roads…and the hulibalu about the police and swat team, apparently there was an armed robbery and it wasn’t even close to where I was, and they caught the guys that did it…uhmm…about 6 miles from where I was….so see…nothin to worry about…:)